Last time I mentioned that I really feel called to live closer to the earth and her rhythms and cycles. That’s not an easy calling to follow through on in today’s fast-paced outcome-oriented world. It’s difficult to step back and see the big picture and even more of a struggle to make changes to the lifestyle that we have screamed at us all the time.

I’m still discovering exactly what this calling looks like for me. The only thing I truly know is my love for herbs, hence why I’m starting my little home apothecary. But it goes deeper than just collecting herbs and making some concoctions. It’s about becoming friends with the earth and learning the importance of her ways.

To some people this might just look like living a simpler life, a life closer to the one our great great grandparents might have lived. And in a sense, that is a part of it. But that in and of itself is not what I’m looking for. Honestly, I’m not 100% sure what exactly it is that I am looking for.

But I’m trying to figure that out. Starting to collect herbs is a first step, and in doing so, I will learn more about each plant and what relationship it has with the world.

The second thing I’m starting to do is journal. Brainstorm. Just THINK and ANALYZE. Taking a short while every day to slow down and consider what areas of my life don’t seem to line up with this mysterious calling I’m trying to answer. It’s hard. I’m someone who doesn’t like a lot of change and making changes in my own personal sphere is something I tend to avoid.

The very first step: outlining and defining who I believe myself to be as a person and who I want to be. There’s probably a lot of discrepancy there, and I want to find it.

Love.